CRUCIBLE

cru·ci·ble

pronunciation[kroo-suh-buhl]
–noun

1. a container of metal or refractory material employed for heating substances to high temperatures.
2. a hollow area at the bottom of a furnace in which the metal collects.
3. a severe, searching test or trial.

Sometimes I don't feel a day older than 16. Barely feeling any more secure in my knowledge of relationships - the pain, love, depth, sorrow, compromise, forgiveness, loss, conviction. Even a dozen years later, there are moments where I feel I know nothing and find myself constantly shaking my head at how all those feelings can seem to happen at once, somehow complimenting and contradicting each other in the same breath.

A severe, searching test or trial indeed.
I hope I pass.