"Endings rarely announce themselves. They steal in
and go nameless until long after their work is done."
By Jamie Patterson
When I was 27, I had been in the midst of the longest relationship of my life thus far: it started when I was 23, just out of college, and four years later it started to end (maybe even before that). Another year after that, when I was 28, there were clear warning signs followed by a definite ending that ripped my heart apart and left me in the deep, dark hollow of an aching soul - with no light to see my way out.
As Jamie Patterson's LOST EDENS forced me to look back upon that time - which is admittedly painful to do - I realize that it was probably much clearer to those around me that this was not a good relationship and that I had lost myself in it... just the same way I was talking out loud to her as I read Jamie's memoir. But, to quote myself from over 2 years ago, "It's hard to see outside of yourself during those kinds of times."
Looking back, it should've been apparent. The first time I really wrote about it, really began to acknowledge it, was shortly after Easter in 2007... I prayed harder than I'd ever prayed for anything during that Lenten season and 3-Day Easter Weekend; and I felt more alone than I'd ever felt, even with the hourly prayers and pleadings. But it started falling apart long before then - couldn't see it, though. A quick remembering of several hard months makes me feel like I really should've seen it coming.
April 2007 - Tried to keep a true Easter Vigil, praying every waking moment
July 2, 2007 - Wrote a Heartbreaking Poem which started to open my eyes
September 2007 - We decide to "take a break" and I go Couch Hopping
January 2008 - We decide to "take a longer break" and Live Separately
April 6, 2008 - The Actual Day of the Break-Up
April 6, 2009 - One Year Later... a glimpse of True Happiness
It took a year from start to finish for the break-up to complete its tiresome task. It took another year, and many friends, family, and love, to get back on my feet. And a year after that, a truly loving man like no other I have ever experienced, proposed to me in our bedroom on Easter morning - one arm extended to me with a beautiful ring, the other holding our beautiful baby daughter.
I've never had a personal wish for an author... but for Jamie Patterson, I wish nothing less than a year or two of healing as blessed as mine have been.
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Disclosure: I received a copy of Jamie Patterson's LOST EDENS to read and discuss as a member of the online book club From Left to Write. The thoughts and opinions expressed above are my own.
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